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Looking back at the me 5 years ago on this site is frightening...I use to try to get the attention of some artists that in retrospect were some really big jerks to me and I use to just take it as if it was normal... (I mean I improved in art but...Jesus I really was annoying)
I constantly wanted people to look and comment on my art and I constantly wanted attention, but I realized something. I wasn't drawing for me, I was drawing for the attention...
See now I want to strive for improvement, and I can finally come to terms that at the time my art sucked and didn't deserve any "attention" whatsoever. I use to get jealous of other artists and just hate myself for it. It was bad. I mean christ, I use to hate other people for putting in effort and trying their best, even if they weren't "as good"(the ignorance is glowing) and they would always be consistant, I wasn't, I was lazy and was expecting gratitude for it...course I wouldn't say that, I just would think it.
Right now I'm doing my best to practise art and draw in both digital and traditional medians(I already finished 2 line art drawings, mainly because I'm going to upload them one at a time so it can be consistant and you can have something to see in my page every week or so. Of course that is after I make more drawings and color them.) Honstly, this is only becuase if I want to be taken seriously as an artist, if I want those watchers to actually "watch" me, if I want to have that connection for anyone to actually like my stuff, then I have to take my stuff seriously, it all starts with me...
Expressing yourself
You ever just try to express yourself to others, but the words that come out of your mouth don't really express who you are properly? Or what your trying to say?
I struggle with this since I was a child. I would express words that dont really say what I truly want them to mean, then I end up loosing the focus on what I'm trying to say. Usually along the lines this ends up in good, or bad light.
The good light being, someone would reiterate what I'd say, and sum it up into a more properly diverse lingo. Which I would then say "YUP, THAT'S IT OH BOI THAT'S THE WORD, SENTENCE THING!" Even be kind enough to work with me, since I stutter...lik
Conversations I'm trying to achieve.
How do you initiate a conversation with someone you want to talk to?
I've been struggling with this type of stuff for years, I want to talk so many artist that I find really interesting so badly, but I
always fear I might over step my boundaries, or make myself look awful. It's not that I haven't tried, it's happened before, more than once. I just feel so awkward, when I try to talk to someone I want to know. I've been blatantly called "annoying" or "weird" and was harassed and made fun of for this type of situation(guess for showing my true-self to soon) so I guess the build up of being shot down so much, might have caused me to fear talki
Next Friday
Just a quick little note, this Friday coming up or next Friday, I'll be posting some of my OC's and such. I might do some Undertale fan art and some other things that I plan to do, but no promises, OC's are coming up first on a weekly(maybe even bi-weekly)schedule.
I won't be giving out a lot of information on my characters story-wise, but just enough to get a hint on what they're like. Maybe drawing some short comics(don't really know). Major changes have been made with my characters. Some have literally changed into another species altogether, some are new. Either way they're coming at you, and its gonna be a big hint for my future comic i
Update! Problems and solutions!
During October and such my tablet decided to break unexpectedly, which caused some major problems in my construction process. However I didn't let that stop me, becuase I decided if I couldn't work out some rough sketches of my characters on the computer, I could do it traditionally! So far I have two new characters for my story and a few redesigns for at least 2. As a Christmas present, I got a replacement tablet, and this tablet is a wacom cintiq 13 hd....I'm in love to be honest, I get to see my drawings on the screen, and I have more control, and I can produce more art faster and better, so even though their was a bit of a pause in produ
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