JinxCrest101

You ever just try to express yourself to others, but the words that come out of your mouth don't really express who you are properly? Or what your trying to say?

I struggle with this since I was a child. I would express words that dont really say what I truly want them to mean, then I end up loosing the focus on what I'm trying to say. Usually along the lines this ends up in good, or bad light. 

The good light being, someone would reiterate what I'd say, and sum it up into a more properly diverse lingo.  Which I would then say "YUP, THAT'S IT OH BOI THAT'S THE WORD, SENTENCE THING!"  Even be kind enough to work with me, since I stutter...like a lot.

(Not that it's a mental issue, it's just I think very, VERY fast and I can't express what I have to say with so much ideas and sentences going through my head all at once, to convey in to a speech pattern. This ends up making me stutter a lot, especially when I'm excited about certain situations or even when I'm very angry.)

In bad light, well, it's usually someone misinterpreting what I'm trying to say and either becoming totally confused with what I want to say, or having this huge misunderstanding that ends up making me look kind of like an idiot. Or even worse, makes me look like the biggest jerk on the planet. 

I feel like I do this on this site sometimes, when it comes to changing something on my DA, or simply writing a journal entry. I feel as though I end up writing something or expressing something that changes the perception of who i am as a person, and what I'm trying to actual say. For example I'll be talking about point A, but then I'll make it sound like point C. So, as a start I apologize if anyone gets confused or if I'm not clear in certain things(just in general).

This affected the way how I would show my personality as well. It's like I want to express it, but man oh man, that's just a struggle on its own accord. (Bruh, that goes even deeper than all of this, I'll save that for another time.)

Tell me, do you have this type of problem, is it normal or do you have a similar experience like it?

How do you initiate a conversation with someone you want to talk to?
I've been struggling with this type of stuff for years, I want to talk so many artist that I find really interesting so badly, but I
always fear I might over step my boundaries, or make myself look awful. It's not that I haven't tried, it's happened before, more than once. I just feel so awkward, when I try to talk to someone I want to know. I've been blatantly called "annoying" or "weird" and was harassed and made fun of for this type of situation(guess for showing my true-self to soon) so I guess the build up of being shot down so much, might have caused me to fear talking to people, and create potential friendships. I guess to be more accurate, I completely forgot how to since I sort of just gave up trying all together, from the fear of being shot down.

I'm slowly getting better at it(as I use to) but I wish I could be able to acquire this type of skill again.

No need in sobbing about it now,(just needed to let a bit of steam out).

I'm working on it though, slowly but surely I'm working on it!

Just a quick little note, this Friday coming up or next Friday, I'll be posting some of my OC's and such. I might do some Undertale fan art and some other things that I plan to do, but no promises, OC's are coming up first on a weekly(maybe even bi-weekly)schedule.

I won't be giving out a lot of information on my characters story-wise, but just enough to get a hint on what they're like. Maybe drawing some short comics(don't really know). Major changes have been made with my characters. Some have literally changed into another species altogether, some are new. Either way they're coming at you, and its gonna be a big hint for my future comic in the cusp of being made at this moment.

See yah